As some of you may or may not know, Molly has been having kidney troubles. Not your typical kidney troubles, but something that could be very life threatening. It is such a hard thing to wrap our minds around, something that you can not see or monitor with your eyes. She is a type one diabetic so this is a complication that can eventually happen with uncontrolled blood sugars. Her blood sugars have always been hard for us to control, even though we THINK we are doing all the right things. We grow 75% of the food we eat and we eat all the things that are good for you. You have all watched how we cook and how much time we spend with our children, it just doesn’t make sense that Molly could be so sick. I have tried everything I know to do to keep her healthy, and I will continue to seek better ways to nourish her. Lately, I have been so weak and tired from monitoring her night and day, testing her blood sugar and trying to ensure that it is in the target range (between 80-150). Molly is so precious to us. She is talented, full of potential, very hard working, very cooperative, and very sweet. Every time I hurt, she always runs to help me, to ask me how I am. She cares so deeply for the sick. And now that she is sick, I am growing sicker. I feel so sick every day with so much pain. The RSD seems to flare up most definitely when you are stressed out. I have been in a large amount of pain, but I do get some relief when I put my foot up. I can’t run the marathon or climb a mountain, but what I need to do, which is to be there for my family, I can do. I want to be well so I can take care of her. Every ounce of my strength I give to her. I am having a very hard time standing and working but I am trying so hard to hold it together for her. I have to figure out how to cook better, as I am learning that she may be sensitive to meats, or dairy, or to gluten. I am just not sure what one is causing the reactions. We are working on some lab work to figure out what we can or can not give her that could be causing these issues. From the outside she looks okay. From the inside, it is all a mystery. All we can see is her blood sugar and we can tell she is having a problem when it goes too high or too low.
We have tried so hard to make a go of our site and our business, so we could keep going, but it is all crumbling. We do not even have enough to scrape by anymore. We surrender to the Lord’s will. We know he is in control. I was working so hard to try to market and promote our business but it really did not do much so I feel that it is in the Lord’s hands. If we fail, if we succeed, if we live, everything is in God’s control. We are so thankful for all that we do have and for the good days. Just when you think life is hard, it gets harder yet. Life is really not about having fun, it is about how we handle it. Do we allow our trials to destroy us, or do we allow these trials to shape us into something better? I know I can’t do this life’s journey by myself, I need all the grace from above to make it through the next minute. I also know that this life is only temporary, that I am but a stranger wandering in a foreign land for a time. A very short time. I am here for a purpose and it is not for my own selfish gain. I want to give my all in service to God and to my family. Please pray strength over our family. Please pray for Molly’s health and that we can find the source of her problem. Thank you for your prayers.
We have tried so hard to make a go of our site and our business, so we could keep going, but it is all crumbling. We do not even have enough to scrape by anymore. We surrender to the Lord’s will. We know he is in control. I was working so hard to try to market and promote our business but it really did not do much so I feel that it is in the Lord’s hands. If we fail, if we succeed, if we live, everything is in God’s control. We are so thankful for all that we do have and for the good days. Just when you think life is hard, it gets harder yet. Life is really not about having fun, it is about how we handle it. Do we allow our trials to destroy us, or do we allow these trials to shape us into something better? I know I can’t do this life’s journey by myself, I need all the grace from above to make it through the next minute. I also know that this life is only temporary, that I am but a stranger wandering in a foreign land for a time. A very short time. I am here for a purpose and it is not for my own selfish gain. I want to give my all in service to God and to my family. Please pray strength over our family. Please pray for Molly’s health and that we can find the source of her problem. Thank you for your prayers.
